It’s safe to say that the messages I draw in these cards each week are always meant for me, as well as for you. That being said, I never like to see the 5 of Swords. It’s one of those cards that makes me cringe because it points to themes of self interest, disloyalty and dubious victories and believe me, those are hard pieces to look at in relation to ones self. If this card isn’t referencing those acts directed at you from someone else, it’s probably pointing out that you're engaged in those kinds of things somewhere in your own life.
The card shows a man holding 3 swords, another 2 at his feet. He has a smirk on his face. There are 2 men walking away, one with his face in his hands. The sky is grey and ominous, the clouds look threatening; it’s windy. There’s the distinct edginess and discomfort prevalent in the image as a whole. This is an Air Element card which is all about intellect and perception. This is minor arcana and so it relates to details.
This is a warning card. It warns that no matter what’s happening in your life right now- your Ego is likely running the show.
The human ego is a complicated beast. It tricks us into wanting what we can’t have, it tells us that it’s okay to disregard our moral compass to get what we need, that our needs are more important than someone else’s. If ever we find ourselves being emotionally manipulative, passive aggressive, or blaming our lot in life on the actions of someone else, the ego is most definitely involved behind the scenes.
This card in fact, is one of the Tarot cards that directly represents the Superego (inner critic). When this card shows up in a reading, it’s a pointed reminder that you’re working some issue from the place of the mind (or the ego, and they’re one in the same). The ego is simply a personality structure meant to keep your life organized and in flow, but it’s robotic nature prefers that the flow, remains status quo. However; *laughs hysterically* the only sure thing in the world is change, and so your poor little Ego finds itself chronically frustrated. The Ego is a powerful little tyrant though, so know that any time he’s there giving orders and trying to maintain order, things like compassion, empathy and trust are locked in some dark basement somewhere, unable to get out.
So where is this true in your life this week? Where are you pushing your own agenda so hard that it’s making those around you tear they hair out? Where are you creating ill will? Where are you failing to trust that you’re taken care of? Where are you choosing to only see things through the lens of your own perspective?
The Ego is a story teller and the stories it weaves are seductive. It takes a strong person to come out from behind the stories of Ego and relate from their heart instead. You are not a victim. You do not need to write the story in order for it to be a good one. You do not need to put your sense of completeness into the hands or reactions of others.
As I write this I see all of the ways I’ve been giving into my own Superego, believing the lies it tells me, falling blindly into self destructive behaviors like self hatred and distrust. So this week, I too will be questioning myself and calling in my higher self, the Universe, God. There is always help available to us if we’re willing to ask. Just remember that.